*Warning: Musing*
Time is our most valuable commodity. We use it to trade for education, experience, or money. We purchase talents, habits, and hobbies with it. We can acquire heartache or eternal happiness with it. We subconsciously invest it in those things that we value the most.
Show me how a man spends it and I will show you what he considers most dear.
You cannot save it, only spend it. Sometimes we waste it. Some people have lost their ability to decide how they will spend it, as they are in jail or addicted to substances or images. Some others, completely of their free choice, choose to purchase nothing. Remember, you cannot
not use it, for it is always spent. The choice is yours to see it well spent. While some redeem this commodity for love, others redeem it for hate. Some choose to buy unity, others discord.
Unlike our purchases with money, there are no exchanges once it is spent. Nothing we purchase with it has a return policy. We are responsible for all defective or damaged goods that we purchase with it. If you decide to invest in sin, it is yours, it may not be returned. However, the rights of its ownership may be transferred. Only through the Atonement of Jesus Christ may we rid ourselves of our damaged goods, and defective purchases. We agree to trade with Him in order to be rid of buyer's remorse. We trade Discord for Love, Impatience for Patience, Corruption for Purity. The contract states that we must take that for which we traded and use it, while we never purchase those damaged goods again. We cannot continue to invest in the same defective products. In fact, we cannot afford it if we wish to be masters of ourselves.
With a way to rectify any poor purchases through our Savior, it is up to us to make the most of our time. Just as we budget our money, why wouldn't we budget our time? This idea has been permeating my mind as I look to finish my thesis by April, plan a trip to Europe, and prepare to move to Texas. While at times I felt good just wasting my time doing nothing, loving the fact that I am not worrying about anything in the moment, I realized how it was so unproductive. Our time was meant to be spent, and spent well. I feel more accomplished as I progress in school, social situations, or skills. This does not mean that I am always doing something amazing. I love to read novels and escape the world, which is better than TV (which took up too much of my time last semester). But ridding myself of procrastination has become a goal of mine, one that I am still trying to overcome. As I learn to invest my time more wisely, I will have many more fond memories as a result of my spending.
If I can master my time, I will become master of myself.
Last of all, here is a thought frequently quoted by Pres. McKay, which describes how the smallest moments in life determine the final product of our destiny:
Sow a thought, reap an act;
Sow an act, reap a habit;
Sow a habit, reap a character;
Sow a character, reap an eternal destiny.